That phone call

I didn't have much to do at work today, so I helped around a bit. I rang clients to get some details off them. Then there was this client who have their house insured under the names of both the husband and wife. The wife answered my call. She sounded alright when I ask her how she is, but when I told her where I'm from and what the call was in regards to, she suddenly sounded fragile.

She told me that the husband passed away last month. She was crying as she told me to take her husband's name off the insurance policy. I felt so bad asking her questions as she obviously was still trying so hard to cope with her loss. But she insisted that I continued. I guess she needed someone to talk to.. I believe that sometimes it's easier to burst your feelings to a total stranger.

Now that 5 minute phone call has dragged this total stranger's mood down to the ground.

I remembered when I was little and we had this very very very old relative. She was so old that I used to think she could be put in a museum, just next to the dinosaur. She was a nice lady, she used to give me Rp. 500 whenever I water her flowers (I'm a hardworker! hehe). But she was that old that once I popped a question to my mother, about death. I can't remember what my question was but it bothered me for the next few days because I was so afraid to die, and I told mom about it. I don't know why but she got angry of my statement and never had I mentioned it again (my mom was a killer, dude, I'd turn the world around if that could stop her from being mad hehehe)

Death is not one of my favourite topics to talk about, and neither is most people's. Although I have once overheard someone on a tram started a conversation with a commuter sitting beside him by asking about whether he wanted to be cremated or burried. That wacko dude hehe..

I guess many people are afraid of death.. or maybe how it will happen is more of a bigger issue. But when you think about it, it's much much scarier to be the ones who are left behind. They have to move on with their lives, while there's a big gap in their hearts where that person used to fill. I hope that lady will be okay..